Well all i can say is that I have recently found happiness I have not known in years. This amazing person who has been under my nose for the longest time and I just didn't realize it. A connection like I have never known or had before with anyone. He reads my mind and feels my thoughts and makes me smile in a way I didn't know I had in me anymore. I feel safe, if that makes any sense. I don't even care if I make sense to people anymore. I wake up so happy and go to bed so peacefully knowing someone like him is out there thinking of me the same way I'm thinking of him. Never have I felt security of my soul and ease in my stride as I do now. I appreciate everything in my life all the more because I've found this kind of feeling of worth that only comes from a certain kind of companionship; the best friend ever. A fitting together so perfectly, I wonder how I've been breathing all this time. This sounds cheesy as fuck, but you have no idea how easily all this has come to me.
I just aced my last three midterms with so much confidence you'd think I wrote my textbook. I just got a home care postition with my agency that seems like it's going to be really fulfilling for both me and my patient. I love my family and treasure my friends. Shit I even went blond for my birthday and it's funny because i like it more and more as time passes. And I finally "cleaned out some old closets" I guess you could say for lack of a better word; it's amazing because it's something I've been needing to do for the longest time and have finally had the balls and closure to do so. I finally feel the strength that the tattoo on my arm signifies. I know I sound like a conceited ass, but i feel like I can do anything latley. I'm that awesome.
Speaking of which, thanks to Uncle Sam,Tattoo #4 is on the way beginning of next month, designed by no one other than the person I've been blabbing about all this time and I can't wait.
Funny how you can look forward to pain like that... well I guess there are some kinds of pain that are always fun.. tee hee. OOps sorry...where was I? Oh yeah! Tattoos riight...it's going to be beautiful, even my mom likes it. I guess I'll sign off now and leave you with a song verse that sums up my feelings lately. Oh and by the way.. to all the fucking stupid people who have missed out on my life for whatever reason... FUCK YOU SHIT STAINS!!!!!! I'm too happy to give a shit about worthless people anymore. BIG HUGS to all my people!! Amanda I love you!! Muah!!
To see you when I wake up is a gift
I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three fold Utopian Dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you.